What do you live for?
Sigh.. sometimes, I feel that I think far too much.. far too unnecessary… One of my favorite spot at home is right in front of a full length wall mirror, while seated in a rattan chair. Sometimes, I like to sit there alone in the dark, often scaring my sister when she walked past the living room unsuspected.
One afternoon, I was seated at the same spot, allowing my mind to drift to the past and future. My mother walked into my holy realm and started a conversation. She said a lot (as always). A particular topic lingered which gave me the inspiration for this entry. She told me that my grandmother had once said to her that if she were to pass on now, she will be very happy. It struck me that she told me the same thing when I was in my teens. She said she has lived a full life, she has no regrets.
A life with no regrets….How cool! Somehow, as I reflected and looked into my own life, I am quite glad to realize that I will be satisfied to leave this world without much desires unfulfilled. I have fought to do the things I have wanted all my life. I will always have good reasons to support the decisions I’ve made, although some had turned out to be less than perfect experiences.
I have loved unconditionally, possessed selfishly;
been an adorable human being to some, an annoying brat to others;
dived into some ridiculous adventures, cowardly rejected many;
made certain people proud of my doings, made some disproved of my works;
had plenty to spend on my next meal, counted the last few shillings in my purse;
found faith in the many individuals I’ve befriended, faced evil in my own heart;
shed tears with a broken heart, oblivious to those I’ve shattered;
Obstinately keeping up with the ideals I’ve gotten from fairy tales, negotiated some cos at times, it’s just too painful to be lonely.
Life is a roller coaster. Darn.. I hate roller coasters. But I’m glad I’ve done it, at least once :>
I scared to look into the mirror… Maybe lack of confidence? Haha…
There’s always unfinished things to do. So if u really leave this world just like that, you will really be contented as long as you are always happy for what you have done…
Roller coaster>>? Ya I didn’t have the chance to ride on… How’s the feeling…? Feel numb?
Yet I am glad I have been there.
Without it all, I would not be truly living my life nor have that shoulder for some to rely on
At times total destruction leads to a new beginning of a phrase.
Where would I go and what choices would I make?
I would not give the cliche of “time will tell”
Some forget the learning lessons of life and go about the same cycle when their lives are doing well
I just hope I don’t do that myself
I was once taught that you should not have regrets because there is no way for you to revisit a decision made. No one can tell if an alternative decision will turn out better in the long run… Since no human can be omniscient, we should just make our calculated decision and move on without regrets. There are 2 types of statement that I will not dwell on… “If only” deals with the past which I cannot change. “What if” deals with the future that I cannot know… Carpe Diem!
My very first time chanced upon your blog. Like your entries, like the way you brought out your thoughts… Hope to see more of your updates, via this platform.
I like this portion on this entry:
“I have loved unconditionally, possessed selfishly;…
… shed tears with a broken heart, oblivious to those I’ve shattered; …”
Guessed it’s a very similiar feels to many.
因为有爱，所以我们执著。
因为执著，所以我们会放不下。
懂得放手，才是快乐。
Wishing you all the best, and may happiness be with you always
thanks 4 the input… this is one of my fav entries. Felt like a public confession…:)
Hi Paige,
Life w/o regrets… how nice it is… If my parents and love ones are not happy, and i failed to cheer them up… my life will have regrets.. i believe i am more of a person that would rather happiness is giving to my love ones instead and i believed that those who love u will too want u to be happy.. Then ur life will have no regret. Cheers Paige
wah Wii….u are so wei da. Making others ard u happy is the way to make u happy. Hard to find ppl like u as most ppl just care abt their own happiness.
its good to realise some of the mistakes made in the past and not regret them
Hi, I am back again.
Just want to share again. I have thought about what and why are we living for like since I started thinking. Ha.
I come to this conclusion. We are living because we are alive. This is what we do. There is no real meanings in life except in finding one for ourselves. And I chose to live naturally.
What I meant by naturally is to be myself. For example, there is no real reason NOT to cry because you are sad or are in pain. It is a natural thing to do, there is no need to hold back, or feel guilty that you are “weak”.
Living naturally means accepting one’s limitations. There is nothing wrong or negative about failing or being less than perfect. It is natural to be wrong and to fail.
Living naturally means doing what you really want to. Not what you think you want to - it is a very fine line. I do it because I feel happy doing it, not because I think it will make me feel happy.
So what I am living for? Life.
I will end this with a quote from William Channing.
To live content with small means
to seek elegance rather than luxury
and refinement rather than fashion
to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich
to study quietly, talk gently, act frankly
to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart
to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never
In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious,
grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony
And just another note on thinking. It is a good thing IMO, as long as you don’t like thinking control an unreasonably large aspect of your life.
I think; therefore I am.
To think is to wonder.
To wonder is to be curious.
To never be curious is not to be human.
To wonder rightly and to wonder wrongly is no matter.
For to wonder is to never cease from amazement or admiration of this tiny world.
~ Unknown
thanks eterna2,
very meaningful quotes